Anonymous asked: Dear ex girlfriend
Dear Ex girlfriend,
When we first met I was young and immature. I was dependent upon my mom and everyone around me still. I worked part time and got by on my manipulative ways. You came along and changed all of that. I got another job. I got a better car. Took over all my responsiblities. I wanted to be better for you and us. I spent a year of my life back and forth. Doing everything in my power to see you every chance I got. We were almost 200 miles apart that whole year and still managed to see each other almost every weekend. Every goodbye hurt more than the last because we only fell more in love. We hit the year mark and it was a done deal. I packed up my stuff and moved 200 miles away from all I knew to be with you. The next year of my life went by fast. I got lost and so did you. We had issues and you beat yourself up that you couldn’t protect me like you promised. We fell apart and I am sorry. I know you are too. I’m sorry I shut down and turned into a different person when we ended. I’m sorry I didnt face it head on. I covered up the hurt and made horrible choices. I want you to know I thank you for all you did and how you helped me grow. I was so happy and proud of the person I had become. I lost her for a while but she’s coming back. I know you’re okay and doing great. That makes me happy. You deserve the best.
-Me
Anonymous asked: Dear mom <3
Dear Mom,
I will never understand how we are so different but yet we have always had a great relationship. I never gave you trouble growing up. I think the worse thing I did in your eyes was stretch my ears. You’ll never get over it but you have never belittled me for the person I am. A lot of girls that go their lives without having a dad in their life yearn for it. I never once felt like I was missing out on something. You were always a great mom and dad. You never hid or tried to keep me from who my dad was and when I finally met him I was only more thankful that you made the decision to raise me on your own. I watched you struggle without even knowing it the whole time I grew up. You worked your ass off to give me everything I could ever want and more and never once let me know how hard things got. You have supported all of my decisions and helped me become the strong person I am today. You’re amazing, and the most beautiful woman I have ever known. Inside and out and I thank god daily that you are my mom.
Love,
me
Anonymous asked: "Dear past me" xx
Dear past me,
I have come a long way. I look back and I still wonder exactly what chain of events made me into who I am today, or was it all of them? I went through a phase where I became a monster in my own words. I made horrible choices that took a terrible toll on others emotions and showed no care in the world about what I was doing. I become even more self centered than I always had been believe it or not and I became angrier than ever. Just think all of that came from a heart break that I just couldn’t come to terms with. So I found ways to just keep rebandaging the wound instead of letting it heal on its own. I was terrified to feel anything because I had gone years with feeling happy and grown and ready to take on things and then one day it all fell apart and I wasn’t prepared for it. It took over a year for me to come back but I finally feel like I’m here again. The angry, mean, heartless person I had become snapped out of it. I feel like I have become a human again. My heart grew or a light came on or something. Whatever it was I am okay with it. I have come to terms with everything that happened. Shed the tears I should have let out a long time ago and have begun to pick up the mess I let build up for so long. It was a long road in such a short time but I’m starting to think I am gonna get to where I need to be just fine.
love,
me
